Sins

If you were in front of me at this time
I’d probably have butterflies
But since your not, all I have for you is despise
Don’t take it as two-face lies
I don’t want everyone else to know I care for you and your lies,
Your malice,
Making me die,
my sinful desire
Temptation without treason
Intent without reason
You just keep me bleedin’
No gauze, no treatment
I hide my feelings so I can be me
While my insides go crazy
Rips and tears
Blood everywhere
But I don’t care
I want you, even if it’s just a layer
This is wrong, I say it in my prayers
But just forget it, I wanna be all better.

Take It

I’m not giving up.
Although life may slip up.
I’ve got you on my mind, mind shut.
I can live through the empty cuts.
No luck, but I still crack its lock.
I got that good luck.
Stuffs hitting me like a truck.
But I can handle it.
Stuffs just getting more serious.
But I take it as just a little bit.
Take life easy so I spend my days with an open mitt.
Ready to catch all that bogus shit. Trust me it ain’t easy, but be blessed with the life you have, just take it.

Relief

Relief, feels so good
Weights lifted off, heals so good
Knowing you’ll be okay or at least you should
No looking back,but only if you could
Living in the past, hoping it won’t last
Now your free, no coming back
Just moving forward, even if you feel bad
Don’t feel for others, just you, be glad
You have another day, a new reason to smile
You don’t have to say, keep ’em guessing another mile
But then you get that call, dreading it for a while
Needed, pleaded for this to be an empty file
Nothing to be said, the call said it all
Just another day, where I felt the assault
No hope, no feelings just a big migraine
Can’t see no lights, sensitive with eye strain
Just wanna relive the relief I felt even if I ain’t sane
Hoping for the next, waiting with no regret
Thinking you’ll be here, even if you ain’t the best
Your the best I ever had, and I can’t think farther than that
If I wasn’t insane, I’d know, flat
waiting for you is the worst regret I ever had, true facts

Summer’s Explanation/500 Days of Summer

Every day I tried to say what you wanted me to say
I could feel the desire in me to be happy for once in my life
And that happiness existed with another person
I wanted it to be you
My family wanted it to be you
But I felt nothing
I felt emptiness
I felt shame
I felt like the love you gave me was unreachable
I reached for it
But it slid through my hands like air
Everyday I tried to say what you wanted me to say
But It honestly didn’t feel right.

Want Vs. Need

I remember when I was so in love with you. All I wanted was for you and I to be together. I wanted our long conversations on the phone forever. I wanted you to make me laugh with your goofiness everyday. i wanted us cuddling always. I wanted forever for us. I wanted you. I loved you. But.. I never needed you. I love you, but I don’t need you.

Now I see the difference after I’ve met you

An Optical Illusion

If you were to ever have a change of heart..
god I wish you would.
There is no trust to grasp from me,
but there’s nothing else to lie about.
I’m truly empty,
& distractions only fill me temporarily.

They fill me only temporarily
But I look happy don’t I
His arms around me, we’re kissing like it’s all new
And no one has a clue
I’m laughing so hard
I gotta make it look real
I’m empty & they don’t have a clue
No, they don’t have a clue

I love you, I miss you, but if you won’t try happiness with me,
Start over and believe,
One more chance to let us be
If you can’t do that,
I can only try to be happy for you
& your happiness now,
I’m not selfish,
But I still love you, I miss you

I love us, I miss us!
But I look happy don’t I
His arms around me, we’re kissing like it’s all new
And no one has a clue
I’m laughing so hard
I gotta make it look real
I’m empty & they don’t have a clue
No, they don’t have a clue

Even when he gives me the greatest days
makes me smile in so many ways
spends all day trying for my full attention
He might be the only one who can catch when,
My smile turns to a stare in the distance,
And only he’ll know the meaning when my eyes start to glisten

I don’t look happy
Even with his arms around me,
we’re kissing like it’s all new
And only he has a clue
I’m laughing so hard
I gotta make it look real
I’m empty & they don’t have a clue
No, only he has a clue
That I’m thinking of you

If you were to ever have a change of heart..
god I wish you would.

The Fix

You see, There’s a difference.
When we talk, I’m all smiles
& for the most part,
All are real, true smiles that he gives me.
As the day fades out, so do my smiles. A temporary fix.
When we talk,
I’m all smiles.
All real, true smiles that you give me. As the day fades out, that’s all that fades.
As the smiles he gives me expire,
The smiles you give me are kept permanent.

Without You,

I feel so empty.

My Dilemma – Selena Gomez

You make me so upset sometimes
I feel like I could lose my mind
The conversation goes nowhere
Cause you never gonna take me there
And I know what I know
And I know you’re no good for me

Yeah, I know that I know
And I know it’s not meant to be

Here’s my dilemma
One half of me wants you
And the other half wants forget
My my my dilemma
From the moment I met you
And I just can’t get you out of my head
And I tell myself to run from you
But I found myself atractted to my dilemma
My dilemma
It’s you, it’s you

Your eyes have told a thousand lies
But I believe them when they look in mine
I heard the rumours but you won’t come clean
I guees i’m hoping it’s because of me

Yeah, I know that I know
And I know it’s not meant to be

Here’s my dilemma
One half of me wants you
And the other half wants forget
My my my dilemma
From the moment I met you
And I just can’t get you out of my head
And I tell myself to run from you
But I found myself atractted to my dilemma
My dilemma
It’s you, it’s you

I could live without you
Your smile, your eyes
The way you make me feel inside
I could live without you
But I don’t wanna
I don’t wanna

You make me so upset sometimes

Here’s my dilemma
One half of me wants you
And the other half wants forget
My my my dilemma
From the moment I met you
And I just can’t get you out of my head
And I tell myself to run from you
But I found myself atractted to my dilemma
My dilemma
It’s you, it’s you

– yeah..

1st Moments/How a Crush is Born

He took my breath away
Walked in and I had nothing to say
First time I had eye candy in class,
You know I was cheesy when we met at last
Times like these I knew I was gunna act shy
It just takes me over till I feel so dry
But a wave of confidence came over me; this is new
Felt myself take a leap of faith when I sat next to you
Didn’t rush a thing just talked as if I knew you
Can’t believe we had that conversation, Took us to some new views
First time talking, knowing we could talk for hours
Leaving you for home just felt so sour
By the way, It was pretty cute when u asked me for my number… Looking down at your feet,
So nervous for our eyes to meet….