The Monsters Behind Me

And with a bit of luck,
I can shed light from the shadows,
keep calm without paranoia,
Move forward with positive thinking..

For If I look back,
I will see my own monsters clawing at me,
I will have betrayed my luck.

I must not look back.
I must not look back.
I must not look back.

Relief

Relief, feels so good
Weights lifted off, heals so good
Knowing you’ll be okay or at least you should
No looking back,but only if you could
Living in the past, hoping it won’t last
Now your free, no coming back
Just moving forward, even if you feel bad
Don’t feel for others, just you, be glad
You have another day, a new reason to smile
You don’t have to say, keep ’em guessing another mile
But then you get that call, dreading it for a while
Needed, pleaded for this to be an empty file
Nothing to be said, the call said it all
Just another day, where I felt the assault
No hope, no feelings just a big migraine
Can’t see no lights, sensitive with eye strain
Just wanna relive the relief I felt even if I ain’t sane
Hoping for the next, waiting with no regret
Thinking you’ll be here, even if you ain’t the best
Your the best I ever had, and I can’t think farther than that
If I wasn’t insane, I’d know, flat
waiting for you is the worst regret I ever had, true facts

Evolution

I am evolving
Physically
Mentally
Emotionally
Coming to my own
Viewing society how it is
In and out
Viewing life
In and out
Contemplating my morals
New and old
Inspired upon and ones forced upon
Analyzing what I was
And what I am now
Accepting my past
And present
Accepting what I’m thought of being then and the present
Realizing what I truly am for the
Present and future
Realizing I will always be affected by society
Not accepting this