Drunken Words Sober Thoughts

We do our own thing
Live our own lives
Day to night
Spend it as we please
But when the weekend comes
Your friends join mine
And we turn from sober buddies
To drunk and ready cuddle buddies
Our eyes match up and all I can think is
You might be dancing with him
But in about two minutes your mine
You walk towards me
Slow with those curves
Quick with that strut
Eyes full of fire
Huge in desire
Oh. What did I get myself into
Then with one slow movement of your lip…
You form that deep dimple of yours
Ugh that little smirk of yours
Knowing it just makes me burst
There no way to stop me from taking you to the bathroom
I pull you in the stall and push you against the door
Give you that same look back
Trying hard not to bring you to the floor
We attack each others lips
Offer some action where the tension keeps rising
And the craving keeps aching
Make our markings
Biting hard
Licking soft
Tonguing all around
As I feel the heat from your body just Ready for my appetite
Feeling your breaths getting deeper
More desperate
I can feel your inner beast
Trying to release
Natures natural action
Oh please let it come
Show me your natural desires
As I see the tension build up in your eyes
All lit up in fire
My hand goes to your ass as the other goes to the back of your neck
Oh man I love tugging that hair of yours
Makes me feel in control
But you already know that
And you love it
At least for tonight
We can continue this mini lust affair
And just for the night
We can play fair
Just tonight
You can have me, bare.

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Aside

Just to clarify something.

I do NOT need to be made or defined into one of your labels.

Made or defined into what you think I should be, am scared to be or what I’m pretending to be.

Frankly, you don’t have any idea how I see a PERSON in my eyes

How I view

How I feel

When I see something or anything.

So no.

You can’t LABEL me as a fake or as needing me to BE something just because of your insecurities.

From the beginning i never really wanted to label myself, but family and friends we’re confused so I had to give them the best answer I could at the time.

“Family and friends, I am bisexual”

But see, because so many people (mostly girls) have turned “bisexuality” into a one night thing or several drunken nights kissing random girls or your best friend or maybe even farther than that, no one really takes being bisexual seriously anymore. They say it’s just a phase or your just experimenting or you just looking for attention.

Judgements.

That’s all the world knows what to do when they see something different and it’s actually pretty sad. But i cannot hate everyone for doing it because it was how we were taught to think as children. What a surprise, society in America isn’t such a great place to grow up after all even if it’s “getting better”. Sure. We’re still born into such small-minded creatures, so ignorant of “the big picture” There’s more worries in the world about people wanting same-sex marriage and inter-racial couples (yes this is still a big problem) than actual problems, like say world hunger or how about something that hits more to home like children in our country, yes America, they are homeless and hungry.

But sadly, the biggest news since this new year has been this:

How ignorant can people be. #ignorant this just got me so πŸ˜ πŸ˜’ #stupid just because he supports gay marriage he’s gay now? #gay  (Taken with instagram)

No Barack Obama isn’t gay. Unfortunately, him supporting gay marriage (which is amazing in my opinion) was the biggest talk of every news station, news paper, and comedy gag since the new year has started. Some say he “came out” until now on his stand in same-sex marriage to get more votes from the youth (I mean why not, it’s a great strategy). But think about it, even if it was for the votes, there is so much that comes with this responsibility to be the first president to support it.

I once saw this magazine cover as foul, ignorant and such a shot at the president, calling him gay just because he supports it. But as a human, I too made a mistake and made judgements. The article pertaining to the cover actually praised the president for finally making a stand and becoming one of the few powerful voices that the LBGT community actually have. The rainbow halo representing an angel to this community. Poetic.

But anyways,

Back to my rant,

The reason why i bring this up is because my mind has not been able to fathom why people think like this. I’m going to focus more on this labeling issue, because in my previous relationship, I felt like the core issue led to this in every single argument. Basically she hated men to the core, and me having previous relationships with men, she was so set on me leaving her for a man and that it was the worst thing I could ever do to her. Turn off and a half. I did not lie about my attraction to guys and I never really did lie to be honest. It was how I felt in the moment and in the moment I always said

“I’ve always been attracted to girls since i was little, I was just to scared to act on it. I’ve tried with guys and I can never get that emotional attachment to them, so don’t be intimidated when I say I’m attracted to men.”

All of this was true. I did try dating many times with guys and even relationships, either the guy was totally wrong or perfect but I wasn’t ready.The only thing that has changed since then is this feeling of restriction. Why is it one or the other? Why does it always have to be heterosexual or homosexual. The one thing i praise about myself is to have grown to have such an open mind. I have learned to use my observational personality to always observe and analyze people and situations. Always a listener. Upon this, I try to learn about a person through and through, and only until then I can set my opinion about them in my head. If I don’t have the time to fully meet them, then I have nothing to say about them. Simple as that, I despise gossip.

So her judgements on me even after our relationship ended, really did tick me off. Not because I still want her or anything of the sort, but because SO many people have this ideology.

Labels. Labels keep our world in order. Labels of sexuality, brand, race, nationality; Just to keep the world going round in an organized fashion. But just like in fashion, there are the Gucci, Louis and Prada’s and the Payless, Tello’s and Walmart’s. Just like in race, in America, the whites are the “majority” and what are the rest called? oh yeah “the minority”. So I know where I stand in the pedestal of sexuality.

I’m not gay

I’m not lesbian

I’m not straight

I’m not bisexual

I’m not transsexual

Just let your small minds think past all of that and just accept the reality. You don’t need to label me. So simple. But I know this is asking too much and people of this generation always want answers and quick! I am one of those people. When I can’t think of an answer or reason I “Google it”. We’re all guilty of doing it but in this little aspect, I hope people slightly open their eyes that it is not needed. So like I said, I hate labels, but I know I can’t avoid them. So as I went though this relationship, I really wanted to find a better answer for her other than bisexual because it is such an over used label and has a bad reputation for just being into girls for a night.

So I “Google’d it” lol and I found something pretty promising:

Pansexuality, or omnisexuality[1] is a sexual orientation characterized by the potential for aesthetic attraction, romantic love, or sexual desire for people, regardless of their gender identity or biological sex. Thus, pansexuality includes potential attraction to people who do not fit into the gender binary of male/female. Some pansexuals suggest that they are gender-blind; that gender and sex are insignificant or irrelevant in determining whether they will be sexually attracted to others.[2]

The word pansexual is derived from the Greek prefix pan-, meaning “all”. In its simplest form, pansexuality denotes the potential of sexual attraction to all genders. It is intended to negate the idea of two genders (as expressed by bi-).

What I love about this ‘label” is that it doesn’t restrict my attraction to one or the other or has a bad rep. It’s real and is exactly how I feel. I am gender-blind. The way I am is I fall in love or lust with their personality.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,

and in my eye,

I don’t see any boundaries.

So I guess if I have to live in this world of labels, this is the only one I can withstand.

Labels

Nala

I had her since I was 6 years old. I just turned 21 in May and she passed in March. She was months away from her 15th birthday. I’ve had her for 15 years of my life. That’s about 72% of my life. But really, I can’t even remember my life as a baby. So really, I’ve had her for as long as I can remember. 100% of the time she was and will always remain a part of my family. She was my sister. From the time we picked her up from Miami to the day she left us in my sisters’ arms, she loved us, over loved us, unconditionally. It’s indescribable the amount of love she showed me because I can’t even understand it. No matter how many times I might have been mad or sad and she instantly forgave my feelings and replaced it with love, trust, and loyalty. That no matter what, I would love her through and through and I was her protector against anything that could harm her. I was her voice. Her eyes only spoke to me that she loved me and trusted her life in my hands. To feed her, hold her, hug her and coddle her as my response. To show her, I accept your trust and I will honor to love you back because there is nothing more precious than unconditional love with loyalty and total trust in something. It’s the most innocent and pure thing to have. To know that this being instantly believes in you so much that you must own up to this responsibility. You cannot let it down. And although we as humans always make mistakes, they forgive us without any doubts. Its amazing to think about because we could never be that naive. We hold grudges and stay bitter. Thats why we love them so much. This bond is so pure and unlike any other bond we can have with a human. A love like no other. I’m realizing now why it hurts so much. Dogs only spend about 15% of years in their owners life. You would think that with there innocent and never evil minded hearts, they should live well past humans, who lose their innocence very fast and knowingly throughout their life. It’s not fair. My Nala deserved a healthy long life. Her love span should have made her live for decades. But life isn’t like that. The greatest things and joys brought to us humans must always come to an end. We do not deserve that love for an eternity. But the fact that they must suffer for our sins is so cruel to me. I’m so sorry Nala. You deserved better. I cannot wait to meet you on the other end. I love you so much, please know you are missed dearly, I know you are waiting for us up there baby.

God didn’t make labels. Man did. God didn’t make boundaries. Man did.

I think people in general are just beautiful.
No matter what sex, race, shape or form.
If I’m attracted to you, I am.
Why put a label on attraction.
The way love happens, just happens. It’s a force between two souls, two persons.
An imaginary tug between two beings that simply cannot be cut, hidden, or destroyed.
Not by a fraction
Why ruin such a thing?
Why label it as anything and everything when it is just love.
And if it is love, then is shall be.
Right?
.. No.

Love is defined as a shared attraction between man and woman.
Not literally in those words
but in the unwritten rule’s,
the ‘in between the lines’,
the normality of society…
But man made this standard of society, not God…
And although I don’t know much of the man,
God gave us the power to love;
Hand in hand,
Something so sacred, so beautiful, so endless.

& Love knows no boundaries,
but man still makes them,
I just wish there was no standard to live up to.
No fear of rejection.
So it could have been easy to say,
I love her
just as it’s easy to say
I love him.
Wishful thinking I guessin’.

But seriously?
Can’t everyone just accept we were made from and by love
and will keep being made…
Made from love, not hate or fear.
Love never fails
It is proven everyday
And it must be accepted
In any form
Because God made man to love one another
And race or sex cant stand as a boundary any longer.

Live

Sometimes you want something so badly, you’ll do anything; be anything to make it happen. But that’s wrong. You just have to sit back and follow the path God is making for you, right at this moment, because being anything but you and forcing 2 things to co-exist won’t get you want you want especially in peace… And sooner or later you will realize that. Let life happen to you, don’t pause it, rearrange it and let it pass by, live it!

Druid: Jasmine

Never knew about “Druid” type of categories. It’s like a horoscope. Im a Jasmine. It defines me perfectly<3

The Jasmine bears richly fragrant flowers that bloom at night. They prefer warmer climates, as they can be fragile. Likewise, Jasmine people are very sociable, amiable, and easy going, but delicate at the same time. Their natural kindness and good spirit attracts people, because Jasmines are always happy to share their positive mood with others. Only Jasmines' closest friends know how sensitive and fragile these people are. The rest of the world perceives Jasmine people as cheerful, carefree, and spoiled children of fortune.

Jasmines prefer to hide their worries deep down inside. When it comes to interacting with others, Jasmines have a natural and easy way about them. In reality, though, they carefully choose every single word that comes out of their mouth.

Jasmines long for harmony. They will do whatever it takes to maintain a peaceful environment. However, at home Jasmines turn into completely different people. They often mistake selfishness and indifference for independence. In the worst case scenario, Jasmines will only turn to their family while in desperate need, which may alienate them on occasion.

Jasmines are very responsible people. They try not to put themselves in danger; they avoid rushed actions. They never blame others for their own mistakes. Jasmines are comfortable modeling their lives after stereotypes and highly value any kind of traditions. They use their parents' relationship as a model for their own marriage, even if their partner objects to this kind of example. Jasmines may fail as spouses, but they would always remain excellent parents. Children are their biggest joy in life, and their biggest hope. Many people born under the sign of Jasmine become pediatricians or school teachers.

Jasmines are not especially materialistic, but they always end up having enough money. They are true workaholics who are rewarded for their efforts.

In order to be happy, Jasmines need to learn to diminish their selfishness and work on their intuition. Although they are pessimists, deep down inside Jasmines know that everything will turn out alright. If a Jasmine Tree person can find someone who can help them to become a little more optimistic and show them the true beauty of life, they will remain faithful to them for the rest of their life.