Drunken Words Sober Thoughts

We do our own thing
Live our own lives
Day to night
Spend it as we please
But when the weekend comes
Your friends join mine
And we turn from sober buddies
To drunk and ready cuddle buddies
Our eyes match up and all I can think is
You might be dancing with him
But in about two minutes your mine
You walk towards me
Slow with those curves
Quick with that strut
Eyes full of fire
Huge in desire
Oh. What did I get myself into
Then with one slow movement of your lip…
You form that deep dimple of yours
Ugh that little smirk of yours
Knowing it just makes me burst
There no way to stop me from taking you to the bathroom
I pull you in the stall and push you against the door
Give you that same look back
Trying hard not to bring you to the floor
We attack each others lips
Offer some action where the tension keeps rising
And the craving keeps aching
Make our markings
Biting hard
Licking soft
Tonguing all around
As I feel the heat from your body just Ready for my appetite
Feeling your breaths getting deeper
More desperate
I can feel your inner beast
Trying to release
Natures natural action
Oh please let it come
Show me your natural desires
As I see the tension build up in your eyes
All lit up in fire
My hand goes to your ass as the other goes to the back of your neck
Oh man I love tugging that hair of yours
Makes me feel in control
But you already know that
And you love it
At least for tonight
We can continue this mini lust affair
And just for the night
We can play fair
Just tonight
You can have me, bare.

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Tug & Pull

A heart can only handle so much tug and pull,
But we all love to have that attention from whoever comes through to you,
So We look for it,
We feen for it,
We search from person to person,
To find that connection,
We want that attention,
That specific affection,
No matter what situations we put ourselves in,
Go to the ends of the Earth to make it happen,
But you should know,
At the end of the day,
Your left with yourself,
This fact is always left a secret,
A secret from ourselves,
Or better yet,
A denial to ourselves,
so all we hear is,
“Yeah girl i’ll be with you forever”
or
“Yeah boy i’ll be with you forever”
And you cherish this promise they hold over you,
Like there is no end to it,
A promise is solid & definite.
Right?
But what if all that trust you put in with them just changes,
And they drop you like not a fuck was lost,
What if the love of your life doesn’t see you as the love of THEIR life,
What happens then?
Yeah you can talk to as many people as you want,
Trying to fill the void,
But speak truthfully,
It only takes a moment for it to empty again,
And your hopelessly,
Hopelessly in love with the idea that THIS person might be it
Even with your logic screaming don’t do it.
And it’s you controlling the reins to your heart
Tugging left
Pulling right
But who are you to let everyone beat it up like its in a fight
A fight to find Mister or Misses right
Just stop going for whatever is there
Don’t settle for another tug
Don’t break for another pull
Because a heart can only handle so much tug and pull
And you know the only one who suffer’s is you and only you.

I’ve been waiting for you.. I want you.. I love you.

I can feel your breathe on my neck
Lingering up to my lips
your not even here and I feel you next to me on my bed
Eyes are closed, I can feel your finger tips
Running up my chest,
I inhale your scent and I feel like I’m inside you
And your inside me
Connected impossibly
with a love so impossible
and we’re possibly insane
To feel this close in a time so constrained
Meanwhile your presence has felt like an Eternity..

I’ve been waiting for you.

The time I spend with you feels endless
the world around me isn’t clear
It’s fuzzy and unknown
All I know is your eyes in front of me
The picture of you is fully blown
Clear but uncomprehendable
starring at something I want so much
even if I may fall in an unclear abyss
I want this risk..

I want you.

You can only imagine how much I crave your touch
When I’m with you
I can’t hold your hand enough
Our bodies need to touch
In the same room and I can’t lose sight of your eyes
My eyes look up to you and I can’t help but sigh..
I’m grasping your beauty at every angle
And as my words get tangled
I finally blurt out everything I feel
And it’s like a song coming out of me
Flowing so effortlessly
So naturally
And this is how I know
I owe you
An “I love you”
Because sincerely,

I love you.

You

Sometimes I slip & fall,
I stutter suddenly.
Flaws & all
But that’s the best part of me.
One day I’ll find you,
My deepest company.
& we can share hands
& smile clumsily.
All because we found
Our life’s missing puzzle piece.

Your Present

Even though your miles away,
That can’t take away the feelings I have for you bae,
My stomach doing cartwheels, butterflies coming my way,
Gravity can’t pull me down today,
It’s only been a month but damn you got a hold on me,
Morning till night, talking non-stop, can’t let my iPhone free,
Got a happy face on, full of glee,
Still got a thing for me, even if I’m a gleek 8)

So I just wanna know what makes you so addicting,
You’re all I have in my head, it’s so amazing,
I can’t think of no one else, you made my eyes see only you, and I swear it’s like I’m dreaming

Your all I see in front of me, even if you ain’t there,
It’s just a deep connection inside of me, I know I gutta share,
And I don’t really second guess the sanity of this affair,
Cuz seeing us together in dreams, I know this gutta be real. All is fair
And all I have for you is me.. Bare.
Starting over but I’m willing to take the steps if we go slow.. Layer by layer.

I just wanna know what makes you so addicting,
You’re all I have in my head, it’s so amazing,
I can’t think of no one else, you made my eyes see only you, and I swear it’s like I’m dreaming

And when we haven’t talked
I kinda feel lost
Like I’ve always needed you there,
At any cost,
So I’m tryna give you a gift,
I got the paper, tape and bow,
I got cuts and bruises but you should know,
If you unwrap me with trust,
I can handle all you got.

I Found Love

I’ve wondered a lot when I will ever find this thing called “love” it had me wondering where it could be. Here are my thoughts.

Love is in a rose
Love is in a caring thought
An unnecessary gesture
that extra mile help
Its In between two people when the rest of the world is just a blur
All that is clear is you and her
it’s in that smile he gives you
Even when he’s not around
It’s the emptiness & the fullness
You feel when it’s as cold as ice
And as hot as fire
The love is inside you
In your heart
You carry it with you
Day in and day out
If you’re looking for love
Love is everywhere your not looking
Close your eyes
Feel your breathe being inhaled and exhaled
Hear the thoughts running through your brain
Feel the emotions coming through
Your heart
Your heart signifies love
Their is love within you
Feel your own
Accept it
Own it
Love it
That’s all that is needed,
yourself.
Now finding another
Is just a bonus
We all want that bonus.
But for now I’ll just keep loving the love inside me<3

Ah I need this mentality all the time. Sorry guys I'm not single. I'm in a deep long relationship with myself<3

Boo…

I have a crush and I want it to go awayyy
I have a crush and it’s keepin’ me awakeee
I have a crush and there ain’t no wayyy
We can be friends after last nights kiss
before that kiss I was fine with just friends
before that kiss we could dance and just let the feelings blend
Before that kiss I was okay
Now we’ve kissed & ..
I have a crush on you and now we just can’t be friends.

Free verse havin’ fun type of writing (:

I’ll Love You The Most

By this time your back with her

I’m here with the lights on dim

Really its just a sin

That your missin’ out on me while you gutta with the leech

She’s just sucking you dry

She ain’t worth your time

Stop dealing with a lame when you got me by your side

Well I wanna be by your side

I’ll leave him if you stay by mine

All these days without words leave me with desires

For you and only you

And now I know its true

That I can love someone else after years with a heart turned blue

 

Why have this love affair

Why leave with questions to bear

If we want each other, let’s be fair

You know were just a better pair

I don’t want us living with regrets

So baby don’t fret

Because i’ll bet

You and me are just a better set

 

I’ve been numb, cold as frost, thinking i just lost

… You, but she’s not the one you choose

Is it? Nah I’m better than who you’ve had

As confident as the day I first met you, my bad

I’m not cocky but just speaking #truefacts

It’s just too bad

Distance ain’t nothing but a measurement

But it still leaves me mad

But nobody handles this shit better than us

‘Cause I swear you’re right next to me when we text, just us

It leaves me wanting more like fuck

But I can barely handle this shit like fuck

Can’t I have you without the fuss?

 

Why have this love affair

Why leave with questions to bear

If we want each other, let’s be fair

You know were just a better pair

I don’t want us living with regrets

So baby don’t fret

Because i’ll bet

You and me are just a better set

 

‘Cause all he got on you are just memories

Some cherished, but most are all just ancient history

The next is a title with me, but you can take that so easily

He’s extinct to me

Your riding the bull, you have the reigns on me

He couldn’t handle, but I know you can baby

And you know our sex life would be epic-intensity

Got me with this warm crazy feelin’

Life is feeling so pure with you, pura vida<3

I’m looking at a better future with you, no coldplay reflectin’

Just you and me, viva la vida

 

Why have this love affair

Why leave with questions to bear

If we want each other, let;s be fair

You know were just a better pair

I don’t want us living with regrets

So baby don’t fret

Because i’ll bet

You and me are just a better set

‘Cause with her your settling for less

You know I’m up for the love quest

And you know I’ll be the one who loves you the best

 

Inhale

Sometimes I feel
You’re so near
So near I hold
My breathe till it feels
Like my body can’t bear
I feel chills
I feel tingly
En yet I feel numb
To the reality
But have to breath
let go of all that I want
I don’t want the pain
But I have to breath
I exhale and feel
My heart bulging free
Free and I sense
The aching all over again

Smirk (not done)

Say you’ll be there
But I don’t even care
I say I care
but I don’t care
I do this so you can feel important
Even if I want you at a far distance
I know it’s apallin’
& know it’s gunna be confusin’
when I want this relationship to end
So then..

I smile at you as I start to say I can’t
I can’t do this anymore
And I’m sorry I’m smiling while I say this
But I suck at explaining shit like this
I smile out of nervousness
I care for you but compared to love? much less
I’m nervous, I don’t wanna hurt the man who’s love I can’t reach
And that’s all you seek
But I’m sorry, my heart stays out of reach

and now you can’t believe what I’m saying, Expected reaction
unexpected that you say you’ll fight for my emotions
Too bad I have no emotions
for you there’s no affection
And I know you saw some before
But you couldn’t see my eyes open
While our lips locked, kissin’
My anxiety whenever you touched me,
the more days past the more I was flinchin’
My body reacting to love uneeded
I know your heart feels beated
But I want this relationship to end
So then..

I smile at you as I start to say I can’t
I can’t do this anymore
And I’m sorry I’m smiling while I say this
But I suck at explaining shit like this
I smile out of nervousness
I care for you but compared to love? much less
I’m nervous, I don’t wanna hurt the man who’s love I can’t reach
And that’s all you seek
But I’m sorry my heart stays out of reach

–this poem sucks, I’m half asleep and with a fever. It needs major adjustments or just a whole new start. I just needed something new to put up.