Tug & Pull

A heart can only handle so much tug and pull,
But we all love to have that attention from whoever comes through to you,
So We look for it,
We feen for it,
We search from person to person,
To find that connection,
We want that attention,
That specific affection,
No matter what situations we put ourselves in,
Go to the ends of the Earth to make it happen,
But you should know,
At the end of the day,
Your left with yourself,
This fact is always left a secret,
A secret from ourselves,
Or better yet,
A denial to ourselves,
so all we hear is,
“Yeah girl i’ll be with you forever”
or
“Yeah boy i’ll be with you forever”
And you cherish this promise they hold over you,
Like there is no end to it,
A promise is solid & definite.
Right?
But what if all that trust you put in with them just changes,
And they drop you like not a fuck was lost,
What if the love of your life doesn’t see you as the love of THEIR life,
What happens then?
Yeah you can talk to as many people as you want,
Trying to fill the void,
But speak truthfully,
It only takes a moment for it to empty again,
And your hopelessly,
Hopelessly in love with the idea that THIS person might be it
Even with your logic screaming don’t do it.
And it’s you controlling the reins to your heart
Tugging left
Pulling right
But who are you to let everyone beat it up like its in a fight
A fight to find Mister or Misses right
Just stop going for whatever is there
Don’t settle for another tug
Don’t break for another pull
Because a heart can only handle so much tug and pull
And you know the only one who suffer’s is you and only you.

Relief

Relief, feels so good
Weights lifted off, heals so good
Knowing you’ll be okay or at least you should
No looking back,but only if you could
Living in the past, hoping it won’t last
Now your free, no coming back
Just moving forward, even if you feel bad
Don’t feel for others, just you, be glad
You have another day, a new reason to smile
You don’t have to say, keep ’em guessing another mile
But then you get that call, dreading it for a while
Needed, pleaded for this to be an empty file
Nothing to be said, the call said it all
Just another day, where I felt the assault
No hope, no feelings just a big migraine
Can’t see no lights, sensitive with eye strain
Just wanna relive the relief I felt even if I ain’t sane
Hoping for the next, waiting with no regret
Thinking you’ll be here, even if you ain’t the best
Your the best I ever had, and I can’t think farther than that
If I wasn’t insane, I’d know, flat
waiting for you is the worst regret I ever had, true facts