Tug & Pull

A heart can only handle so much tug and pull,
But we all love to have that attention from whoever comes through to you,
So We look for it,
We feen for it,
We search from person to person,
To find that connection,
We want that attention,
That specific affection,
No matter what situations we put ourselves in,
Go to the ends of the Earth to make it happen,
But you should know,
At the end of the day,
Your left with yourself,
This fact is always left a secret,
A secret from ourselves,
Or better yet,
A denial to ourselves,
so all we hear is,
“Yeah girl i’ll be with you forever”
or
“Yeah boy i’ll be with you forever”
And you cherish this promise they hold over you,
Like there is no end to it,
A promise is solid & definite.
Right?
But what if all that trust you put in with them just changes,
And they drop you like not a fuck was lost,
What if the love of your life doesn’t see you as the love of THEIR life,
What happens then?
Yeah you can talk to as many people as you want,
Trying to fill the void,
But speak truthfully,
It only takes a moment for it to empty again,
And your hopelessly,
Hopelessly in love with the idea that THIS person might be it
Even with your logic screaming don’t do it.
And it’s you controlling the reins to your heart
Tugging left
Pulling right
But who are you to let everyone beat it up like its in a fight
A fight to find Mister or Misses right
Just stop going for whatever is there
Don’t settle for another tug
Don’t break for another pull
Because a heart can only handle so much tug and pull
And you know the only one who suffer’s is you and only you.

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Let Me Try / Handle On Life

I’ve came to the conclusion
I no longer need these illusions
Time no longer matters, it’s a state of confusion
What I do here and now is my state
Your opinion no longer matters, at this rate
What I do is my matter, i don’t need your “for god’s sake”
Do this or that, it’s a wrap
Came to talk? Bro don’t attack
I know what my life has become
I don’t need mirrors surrounding me
I see within myself everyday
And bro it’s scary
I need change, but change is scary
Day by day I get weary
Do I really wanna fight the battle within me?
Break the walls of defeat
Build my ego, inches and feet
Stack ’em up ’til I’m ready to go.. Go.
But where’s my confidence at?
Bro push me to succeed and confidence shall lead.
one good deed ends to another
My life ends here and out comes another
resurrected, built 10 times harder
And I’m here to stay, no falling out
I come to find my path, no following out
Through the forests I’ll find my own way out
So just let me be
I got this, you see?
Just let me.

DADT

— when I was influences by Lady Gaga, wrote this poem to Repeal DADT last year (:

In the air we all spare
all the time in our lives
can’t think right just stay high
Above all others, we don’t bother
But the others feel we bother
We just trying to create new beginnings for gods sake
Deciding to be one of the greats, can make you feel all the hate
We just try to facilitate the little love we make
It’s our battle, we can handle
They say stay quiet…shhh
But these topics are to diar
Time to speak, don’t be weak
We’re not free but we still in the jeep
In the streets, defending for you creeps
The least u can do Is acknowledge my orientation
It’s stated in the declaration. Your lucky we been patient.
Don’t ask don’t tell
Keep your life to yourself
They all say this to ignore all the prejudice
Time to face this, my life isn’t basic
Deal with the discriminants
Stop sending home the real fighters, fighting for all freedoms, their promises ARE kept
Repeal D.A.D.T
Changes need to be M.A.D.E