I’ve been waiting for you.. I want you.. I love you.

I can feel your breathe on my neck
Lingering up to my lips
your not even here and I feel you next to me on my bed
Eyes are closed, I can feel your finger tips
Running up my chest,
I inhale your scent and I feel like I’m inside you
And your inside me
Connected impossibly
with a love so impossible
and we’re possibly insane
To feel this close in a time so constrained
Meanwhile your presence has felt like an Eternity..

I’ve been waiting for you.

The time I spend with you feels endless
the world around me isn’t clear
It’s fuzzy and unknown
All I know is your eyes in front of me
The picture of you is fully blown
Clear but uncomprehendable
starring at something I want so much
even if I may fall in an unclear abyss
I want this risk..

I want you.

You can only imagine how much I crave your touch
When I’m with you
I can’t hold your hand enough
Our bodies need to touch
In the same room and I can’t lose sight of your eyes
My eyes look up to you and I can’t help but sigh..
I’m grasping your beauty at every angle
And as my words get tangled
I finally blurt out everything I feel
And it’s like a song coming out of me
Flowing so effortlessly
So naturally
And this is how I know
I owe you
An “I love you”
Because sincerely,

I love you.

An Optical Illusion

If you were to ever have a change of heart..
god I wish you would.
There is no trust to grasp from me,
but there’s nothing else to lie about.
I’m truly empty,
& distractions only fill me temporarily.

They fill me only temporarily
But I look happy don’t I
His arms around me, we’re kissing like it’s all new
And no one has a clue
I’m laughing so hard
I gotta make it look real
I’m empty & they don’t have a clue
No, they don’t have a clue

I love you, I miss you, but if you won’t try happiness with me,
Start over and believe,
One more chance to let us be
If you can’t do that,
I can only try to be happy for you
& your happiness now,
I’m not selfish,
But I still love you, I miss you

I love us, I miss us!
But I look happy don’t I
His arms around me, we’re kissing like it’s all new
And no one has a clue
I’m laughing so hard
I gotta make it look real
I’m empty & they don’t have a clue
No, they don’t have a clue

Even when he gives me the greatest days
makes me smile in so many ways
spends all day trying for my full attention
He might be the only one who can catch when,
My smile turns to a stare in the distance,
And only he’ll know the meaning when my eyes start to glisten

I don’t look happy
Even with his arms around me,
we’re kissing like it’s all new
And only he has a clue
I’m laughing so hard
I gotta make it look real
I’m empty & they don’t have a clue
No, only he has a clue
That I’m thinking of you

If you were to ever have a change of heart..
god I wish you would.

Living

Impossible,
Our situation.
I Look at you and know,
there’s gunna be a struggle
it might hurt a while
The looks at us will be vile
I may not want to go on
Living with you against the world..

but once I see that door crack open
You and me hunny we’re goin’
no looking back cuz we’re leavin’
and I know these thoughts are teasin’
but were gunna be on our own two feet
Trippin’
falling in love over and over
Long as you give me that smile back
We’re gunna start livin’
You and me baby, we’re livin’

You could go take the other way
Close that door & stay at bay
fall in love again or wait & stay
Live an alternate life, you’ve got a say
So jerk to what you want
But baby I’m what you need
Your life begins with me
Atleast that’s what I believe
And what I believe in is you and me..

So once I see that door crack open
You and me hunny we’re goin’
no looking back cuz we’re leavin’
and I know these thoughts are teasin’
but were gunna be on our own two feet
Trippin’
falling in love over and over
Long as you give me that smile back
We’re gunna start livin’
You and me baby, we’re livin’

You can try & fight the feelings baby
But I’ll just be standin’ here on my own feet slippin
Until you slip right to me thinkin’

You and me hunny we’re goin’
no looking back cuz we’re leavin’
and I know these thoughts are teasin’
but were gunna be on our own two feet
Trippin’
falling in love over and over
Long as you give me that smile back
We’re gunna start livin’
You and me baby, we’re livin’