Sometimes I feel
You’re so near
So near I hold
My breathe till it feels
Like my body can’t bear
I feel chills
I feel tingly
En yet I feel numb
To the reality
But have to breath
let go of all that I want
I don’t want the pain
But I have to breath
I exhale and feel
My heart bulging free
Free and I sense
The aching all over again


The Monsters Behind Me

And with a bit of luck,
I can shed light from the shadows,
keep calm without paranoia,
Move forward with positive thinking..

For If I look back,
I will see my own monsters clawing at me,
I will have betrayed my luck.

I must not look back.
I must not look back.
I must not look back.