Smirk (not done)

Say you’ll be there
But I don’t even care
I say I care
but I don’t care
I do this so you can feel important
Even if I want you at a far distance
I know it’s apallin’
& know it’s gunna be confusin’
when I want this relationship to end
So then..

I smile at you as I start to say I can’t
I can’t do this anymore
And I’m sorry I’m smiling while I say this
But I suck at explaining shit like this
I smile out of nervousness
I care for you but compared to love? much less
I’m nervous, I don’t wanna hurt the man who’s love I can’t reach
And that’s all you seek
But I’m sorry, my heart stays out of reach

and now you can’t believe what I’m saying, Expected reaction
unexpected that you say you’ll fight for my emotions
Too bad I have no emotions
for you there’s no affection
And I know you saw some before
But you couldn’t see my eyes open
While our lips locked, kissin’
My anxiety whenever you touched me,
the more days past the more I was flinchin’
My body reacting to love uneeded
I know your heart feels beated
But I want this relationship to end
So then..

I smile at you as I start to say I can’t
I can’t do this anymore
And I’m sorry I’m smiling while I say this
But I suck at explaining shit like this
I smile out of nervousness
I care for you but compared to love? much less
I’m nervous, I don’t wanna hurt the man who’s love I can’t reach
And that’s all you seek
But I’m sorry my heart stays out of reach

–this poem sucks, I’m half asleep and with a fever. It needs major adjustments or just a whole new start. I just needed something new to put up.

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